07.28.25 - touching grass
it is currently 10:59 am which is a somewhat odd time to log an entry, but here we are. yesterday was very eventful!! in the morning i worked an adoption event for the local animal rescue i volunteer with and we had around 30 cats and kittens, almost all of which got adopted :)
i went home and had to try to nap as much as possible lol..... in the evening we went to a show for a band that is really awesome live, but unfortunately the venue was not great. tonight is jam night and since i don't play any instruments i am trying to decide if i want to draw or work on my site during it. i used to just sit and watch during the jams but seeing everyone exercise their hobbies ends up making me want to work on mine. i am such a vehemently awkward person in real life and it is something i'd really like to work through but it is difficult being so intensely in your own head about stuff. need to start daily affirmations of like: its okay to be here these people like you you are allowed to hang out with them and everything is chill. lol.
honestly i think i'm going to need to reformat this journal page because this scroll box could theoretically end up becoming really long and i'm not sure about that. but also this is just what was easiest for me so idk!!!
07.23.25 - the great retail experience
my first journal entry here.... usually when i journal i like to write about my day, recurring thoughts i've been having, dreams (although i'd like to maybe make a dedicated page for dreams) and other miscellaneous business.
so.. that is what i am going to do lol. today in particular was uneventful. it was shipment day at work which is basically the most actual labour i ever do at my job. i am extremely keen on finding different employment as of late because coming back to this job was a last resort due to employment these days seeming like an ouroboros of preexisting work experience being required for entry level jobs. but i digress.
it is just very draining and i have a manager who speaks out of turn very frequenly and is generally a pretty negative and miserable person who makes it everyones problem lawl. i really want something better for myself and the idea of ever finding a career that i will be fulfilled by both emotionally and financially has been causing me great despair as of late. the wonderful world of being in your early 20s. i had pizza and a huge 7 eleven diet coke for dinner though which was lovely.